Headaches and babbles and waiting
Journal Entry: Tue May 18, 2004, 6:03 AM
Right now, I'm listening to Lacuna Coil's Heaven's a lie, I'm just feeling as though, I don't know and don't care what goes on at school, I'm like in a void of darkness that no one can touch, at least no one at school anyway, I woke up this morning to a fight that involved me and my new job, all b/c my family don't like the fact that I have my own money and that I'm not home to watch my nephew and I'm always out with my friends. They had a problem with me borrowing money all the time, plus that boy ain't mine, but I'm pretty much raising him, the boy learned to speak spanish before english, b/c I taught him, and he loves the spanish channel and spanish music of all kinds. But I still think I'd make a horrible mother. But I'm not gonna quit my job for my grandma's gain, I'm happy working, and I love it, I shouldn't have said family, jsut my grandma, with whom I live with, she's jsut mad b/c for once she has to deal with dirty diapers and potty training, even though shes been through it. But its ok, she'll bitch and moan, I just won't care, b/c at 2 in the morning if he's having a bad night, I'm the one he comes too, not her, I wake up his there staring at me sweating, or thristy,or whatever, but I get up and get whatever he needs. I help make sure he is in bed at or at least by 9. When I get home he's always waiting on me, and as soon as I get through that door, I got a hug and alot of kisses coming from him, my mom and I watch that boy all the time, he'll end up sleeping in her bed wake up and be in mine, and thats cool. I love him, but if I'm gonna buy him things, and take him places, I gotta have money, so every saturday, me, him, my mom, go out, just us 3. He goes to all the stores I go to, he loves hot topic and spencers and any music store. Well, I'm sorry, didn;t mean to babble hope everyone is having a better day/life then me. More to decide when I talk to someone, I confide completely in.
